It was the one of the beautiful winter evenings with slight drizzles (which is rare in a place like kurukshetra) and i was having coffee in the market. Sipping the coffee and looking at the shadowy sky, i saw a plane(not the real one but the paper plane) travelling through the wind. It was one of those moments when you feel good about something but you really don’t know what’s there to feel good about. May be it reminded me of my good old days when i used to control such innovative stuff forgetting everything else and my heart dancing with every single moment of anxiety. Or may be it tried to tell me that -life is so beautiful, explore it. Enjoy the freedom. Sometimes small things can make a big change in your life and that’s what happened at that particular moment. I felt little bad, I didn’t understand why. In life we all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unreachable dream, and unforgettable memories. That moment i thought of all of these and i felt somewhere inside me that i have missed something in life. While i was looking to reach the destination, i forgot to treasure the journey. I tried to measure my life with coffee spoons. The tragedy with me i guessed was not that i suffered but rather what i missed. I felt little tired. But as they say – In the book of life, the answers aren’t in the back. One has to get up and start it over and over again to realize how precious it is. That day there was a strange reluctance in my mind to admit that i enjoyed life; But i decided not to give up. It was getting dark. I could see the moon. And i thought- “i’ll wait for tomorrow, it might just bring new sunshine in my life”
Deepak Rana 